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Disappointment. Should I change who I am? Am I a bad person? Do I really care? I resent that those thoughts have arisen once again in my psyche. We all have blind spots as to how others see us. But how often are you forcibly confronted with behavior that baffles you only to be told that you caused it yourself…

I’ve been told I scare people. I’ve been told that I’m a calm person and a happy-go-lucky soul. I’m dependable, reliable, and a joy to work with. Somehow that doesn’t jive with being told I scare people…. Something about poking the bear. I realize that people only can see you thru their own perceptions. But, hey give me a break. Why do I have the “E.F.Hutton” effect when I talk?

Do I sound exasperated? Well yes I am. What do I change, if anything? Is it okay to be me?

Ciao

2 weeks. 2 root canals. 4 visits to the dentist. But other than it’s a pain, inconvenient, and very unpleasant, I realized that I couldn’t even tell you what my dentist looked like. If there was a police line-up and they asked me to identify him, I couldn’t. I know his name. I’ve written him checks. I know he wears glasses over top of the mask.. I think he has brown hair. Hey, I could identify him by his elbows. I sure know what they look like!

Kinda strange…