I’m screaming inside.  I’m shaking with cold and I’m tired of feeling every little twinge in my body as if I’m about to throw up.  I don’t know which is worse:  getting sick or the damn medication Doctor keeps prescribing.  The more I take, the more awful I feel.  The Dr has no idea why this is happening.  I’m pretty sure that the first round of meds probably caused all this and now they can’t figure out why it keeps happening.

When I feel better, I have this voice in the back of my head saying, “just wait, just wait.”  And when it happens all over again, it’s there yelling, “you’re gona’ die.”

Maybe I’ve been in the house too long.  But I cant afford to not work, so working from home is it. 

Now if I could just get through till Monday, when the test results come in, to see what the hell I’ve got.  Now I’m worried there won’t be some big red glaring thing and they will put me on yet more meds to make me sicker.

Sigh… Ciao