I now truly understand. I understand fatigue. I understand the doctor’s, “you will know it when it hits”. I understand that you really can’t possibly understand.

I can’t move. I can’t breath. I can’t think. I can’t get out of bed. I can’t even contemplate moving. I have thoughts and plans and desires but can’t seem to… Hours go by.

Its not sleep I need. Its not drugs I need. Its.. well once I figure that out, I will return.