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Wow! Nothing like going to the west coast to really screw with your sense of time. It’s amazing how your body can just shut down when you won’t sleep. As I get older, my body seems much more like a cranky kid outside of his schedule. “No playtime. No sleep. Oh you wanted to not have indigestion? Well just suffer.. You brought me out here and expect me to adjust quietly. Yeah right.”

So of course, after a few days of sitting through session after session all I wanted to do was just sit and veg. I don’t think I could have put two words together. It’s strange. I was so tired, it was like I was drunk. That thick fog was just sitting on my brain. Thank goodness I didn’t have to drive.

Off to catch some shut-eye.

Ciao

I just had a most disturbing conversation. Someone related to me is reading my blog. Now you would think this would be a pleasant thing. But it’s not. You see I write things here that I think about and sometimes are only in my reality, not anyone else’s. They comment and feel that they need to police my stories. Very annoying. I’m finding that it is severely limiting my ability to write anything at all. It’s like having your mother listen to every conversation you have with your boyfriend. While I’m not writing earth shattering anything there, I find I don’t want to write anything at all.

So welcome to the new blog. Not inventively named. I only added a “2” to the title and left the old one in place as bait.

Welcome to a little corner of my mind.

Ciao

“Cheese, cheese, lovely cheese.” As Wallace would say. But there is nothing finer than sitting on your own porch, nibbling on spicy cheese, crunchy bread, salty prosciutto, and red grapes. Just cruising the Internet. God, I love wireless! After so many years, it’s great to join the current century.

What will the world think of next?

Gadgets. Gota get me an Ipod…. Then I could have my tunes as well..

Add a glass of wine and I’m in heaven.

Have a good one.
Ciao

I’ve been reading other blogs again. Admiring the witty statements. The nice turn of phrase. The pure banality of it all. Mine included.

Today started out pretty much in a haze. Foggy thoughts. Couldn’t speak coherently. Concepts flitting away in the corner of my mind. I often have problems speaking. Thoughts seem to tumble out randomly only making sense to me. I have to slow down and construct the sentence in my head before I let it escape out my mouth. I know I haven’t succeeded when I see the glassy-eyed expressions. Some part of me wonders just what the hell they’re thinking while I compose myself and start over.

The new guy started and sure likes to hear himself talk. I’ve learned more trivia about him then I know about most of my friends. I have to corral the conversation back to whatever it was that started it in the first place. Nice guy. Still working out territory. Still watching him go through all the male rituals with all the other guys. So far so good. I watch their expressions. I watch their body stances. All the while chuckling inside as the ‘alpha dog’-ness of it all threatens to send me into giggles.

Poor guy has been told his cube is haunted, that I’m a real task master, and he’s on the hook for 50 projects. It’s a wonder he hasn’t run screaming from the building. But he does seem to know when he’s being teased.

Ciao

My mind is a whirl with dark and dangerous thoughts. What do you do when you realize that your life will never be as intense as a movie or a story. When your reality is shadowed by your current book, how do you stop yourself from thinking? My dreams have left me with a paranoid feeling. The feeling that an on-coming light is really a train and no one is telling me….

It all started with reading a tech manual with my headphones on. I didn’t realize how dark my music is. How angst, soul-searching, and challenging to the norm. It seeped into my unconscious and now is leaking in to other parts of my life. Take that in combination with the tunnel vision I have found as I get older, to completely tune out the world and focus on something.

Now to shake this off and go wander around on this beautiful day and look at the cherry blossoms.

Ciao